Ramadan

Assalamualaikum...
May ALLAH bless you..

So, it's been nearly a month since Muslims are having their fasting... Tired, thirst and hunger are part of it... Ramadan is the month for Muslims to seek ALLAH forgiveness ultimately... Ramadan gives Muslims tremendous rewards for those who really mean it...Truly seek for ALLAH blessings.. During Ramadan, all the hell gates are closed and all heaven doors are open... Kalamullah - Al Quran - is revealed to our last prophet, Nabi Muhammad SAW... Allah biggest gift to us... Helping Muslims walk along the true and real path... Far away from being lost.. And don't forget Malam LailatulQadar, one night that is better than a thousand night... Can be seen and feel only by the chosen people.. Chosen by Allah..

Ramadan... one of the most special month in Islam calendar... Regret it if you don't appreciate Ramadan.. Once you miss it, you wouldn't meet it the same as before... Fill your Ramadan with Taubat... Insyallah JANNAH is promised for you...

Puisiku

Kehidupan sempurna tidaklah ada,
Kehidupan abadi janganlah didambakan,

Tiada apa yang perlu diubah,
Semuanya sudah cantik dan indah,

Burung - burung di atas pohon merimbun,
Duduk berkicau berbicara dengan riuhnya,
Angin bertiup melebarkan sayap pelangi,
Terpesona alam yang sungguh lebat sekali,

Jangan kau kisahkan katak yang berteduh,
Pandanglah pada awan membawa hujan,
Tiada lagi keperluan kau mengeluh,
Suasana sejuk yang sentiasa nyaman,

Pergilah suram dan kerisauan,
Pergilah jauh ditiup sang bayu,
Terbanglah engkau ke hujung dunia,
Membawa sekali harapan palsu,

Di sini tinggal panas kehangatan,
Memberi pedoman,
Di sana ada cerah kejelasan,
Membenarkan kebenaran yang ditinggal kepupusan,
Semaikan iman,
Hidupkan cahaya putih itu,
Setia pada penciptamu.

Masa Lalu Masa Hadapan

Assalam...

Pernahkah anda berimpian untuk kembali ke masa lalu?
Pernahkah anda berimpian untuk pergi ke masa hadapan?

Masa lalu dan masa hadapan,
Dua zaman yang sama sebenarnya,
Kedua-duanya menjadi taruhan manusia membina hidup,
Sama ada akan kaya,
Ataupun jatuh baring melutut meminta-minta,

Tiada yang terlepas daripada kedua-duanya,
Masa lalu yang dianggap kenangan,
Dan masa hadapan yang digelar harapan,

Namun, ada juga ketika masa lalu disesali kehadirannya,
Kerana masa lalu, masa hadapan tiada,
Tetapi, ramai juga yang lupa,
Tiada masa lalu, tiada juga masa hadapan,

Usaha yang ditabur dan disemai di masa lalu,
Dapat dibajak dan dituai di masa hadapan,
Buktinya keceriaan dan senyuman senang,
Menggantikan kerut dan lelah yang memanjang,

Setiap yang hidup akan mati,
Hidup itu masa lalu,
Mati itu masa hadapan,

Isikanlah yang ditengah dengan benih-benih kejayaan,
Hidup subur sebagai pohon berteduh dikala hujan,
Sesekali dicantas memberi kemasan yang sopan,
Sambil ditemani nyanyian merdu burung-burung kayangan,

Masa lalu masa hadapan,
Jangan kau cemari dengan kekotoran,
Jangan kau gelapkan dengan dakwat hitam,
Sinarinya dengan lampu terang,
Putihkannya dengan keimanan.

Ridiculous

Assalamualaikum..

Hello World...

Happy fasting...

It's been 2 months since my last entry in here.... I am working now but not as a practical teacher anymore but as an internship student at ILPKL... The surrounding here in ILP is good and the people also nice... I will be in here until the end of August, meaning my internship is only for 2 months... Can't wait till the last day of this tiring responsibility... Miss my UNI and my friends in Johor Bahru..

Ok, what I wanna tell you is that now I just realize, my blog is filled mostly with my love fantasy story... Filled with my story of my fantasy future spouse, my story of my fantasy future life, the story of my life whose thirst for love....Hahahaha.... What a pathetic blog I have.. This is so sad.. Shame on me...

But honestly that would be my true intention when I sign up blogger.com  for the first time 4 years ago...This blog is my space to express my feeling towards anything especially my love world... Hahahahahaha... I am so pathetic... I guess a person like me don't deserve a blog of myself... 

But who cares? I don't think people out there would be so excited to care about my blog as long as I don't write anything controversial right? Hmm, sometimes I feel so annoyed with my own personal expression... I feel like a desperate woman... But to delete all of the annoyed stuffs, I can't do it... Maybe next time but not in the meantime..

Maybe I just need to calm down a bit, to just breathe, relax and think again of what have I done to this blog...A little correction and new consciousness about this life is what I need to bring up the mood again..Yeah, maybe it's all I need after all...

Ok, see you next time...

Soulmate

Assalamualaikum....
How are you today?
Me? I'm fine...


It's been a long time since my last entry in here, so to start the new month I'm writing today... Recently, I watched a lot... WE GOT MARRIED is my favourite nowadays... Love watching Korean couples live their life as a married husband and wife... And to think of it, marriage is not an easy job after all...

When I think about it, how would my life gonna be when I get to marry someone? Even though I prefer single the most, but marriage is important for me too... Living with opposite gender in the same house together kind a make me scary... Don't know what to expect.. I'm a fussy woman actually...Hate to think that I have to share everything with strangest... I know that HE is my husband but ahhhh!!!! I don't know....

To be honest, I've never had a boyfriend before...For me, a relationship with a guy is not profitable... I don't like to share my life with someone.. I don't like to tell other people about where I'm going or with whom I with or how is my day... I tried once dating with a guy but it last for only 2 weeks... For the 1st week, it goes  just nice but when it comes to the 2nd week, everything feels different.. I felt annoyed with everything he did... He is kind but maybe he is not for me... I don't deserve him.. I don't feel anything inside me... That's why I quit... I lied to him.. I told him I've had another guy, so he hate me and leave..

From that day, I live my life with just only me to care...But I like someone during my study.. I confessed to him last year but he rejected me.. Sad? No I don't feel anything honestly... Maybe I'm just a girl with no heart inside... hahahaha... I told my friends about my illness but they said it was only because I'm not meeting my truly soulmate yet.. Once I meet him, there would be no coupling, no engagement, only marriage... And I will become the most loyal wife and loving partner ever exist...I just laughed..

It is hard you know... I hope I can be a good and lovable partner for my future soulmate... Stay by his side together during hardship and happy days until the end of his life... Perfecting him with all my effort... Even though I'm not pretty, not romantic, not rich, not intelligent, not in style, not sexy.. but I will do my best to be the perfect one for him... And he accept me sincerely as his partner..

To my future soulmate, please treat me well... I'm not asking much... Appreciation is just what I want... See you when I see you (even though we don't know each other outside).. Take care until then... Love you...