Assalamualaikum....
How are you today?
Me? I'm fine...
It's been a long time since my last entry in here, so to start the new month I'm writing today... Recently, I watched a lot... WE GOT MARRIED is my favourite nowadays... Love watching Korean couples live their life as a married husband and wife... And to think of it, marriage is not an easy job after all...
When I think about it, how would my life gonna be when I get to marry someone? Even though I prefer single the most, but marriage is important for me too... Living with opposite gender in the same house together kind a make me scary... Don't know what to expect.. I'm a fussy woman actually...Hate to think that I have to share everything with strangest... I know that HE is my husband but ahhhh!!!! I don't know....
To be honest, I've never had a boyfriend before...For me, a relationship with a guy is not profitable... I don't like to share my life with someone.. I don't like to tell other people about where I'm going or with whom I with or how is my day... I tried once dating with a guy but it last for only 2 weeks... For the 1st week, it goes just nice but when it comes to the 2nd week, everything feels different.. I felt annoyed with everything he did... He is kind but maybe he is not for me... I don't deserve him.. I don't feel anything inside me... That's why I quit... I lied to him.. I told him I've had another guy, so he hate me and leave..
From that day, I live my life with just only me to care...But I like someone during my study.. I confessed to him last year but he rejected me.. Sad? No I don't feel anything honestly... Maybe I'm just a girl with no heart inside... hahahaha... I told my friends about my illness but they said it was only because I'm not meeting my truly soulmate yet.. Once I meet him, there would be no coupling, no engagement, only marriage... And I will become the most loyal wife and loving partner ever exist...I just laughed..
It is hard you know... I hope I can be a good and lovable partner for my future soulmate... Stay by his side together during hardship and happy days until the end of his life... Perfecting him with all my effort... Even though I'm not pretty, not romantic, not rich, not intelligent, not in style, not sexy.. but I will do my best to be the perfect one for him... And he accept me sincerely as his partner..
To my future soulmate, please treat me well... I'm not asking much... Appreciation is just what I want... See you when I see you (even though we don't know each other outside).. Take care until then... Love you...
LIFE
