Assalamualaikum...
How are you?
May Allah bless you all with prosperity and easiness...
Okay, it's been 3 months since my last entry in here. So, today I want to tell you a story about a little girl's dream...A few years back, there is one little girl who dreams of flying to Middle East and hold the status as a medical student.. And yes, she got the offer to do Medic in Egypt.. But unfortunately, due to poor family and lack of knowledge, she missed the chance...And yet, she continued her study to Form 6 and finally now hold the status as a teacher to be, Insyallah... Until now she's still has the same dream as before, dreaming to be one of "The" qualified international student anywhere in any part of the world...Yes, that little girl is me...
Funny isn't? I know it sounds stupid to waste the precious money into something that I know can help the family to become better in the future, but honestly I WANT to study overseas... I'm not very sure if my family will accept my greatest dream, but for Allah's sake I want to do this for them... I know as the oldest sister in the family, the future responsibility is in my hands plus I have a sister and brother that needs support especially financial support for their better education... But I do really want this because I know the moment I take the burdens, I would no longer have the TIME and INTENTION to do it sincerely even though I have the money... Many people don't understand that and I was so pissed of it..They don't know me and yet, they are all "sibok-sibok" interfering my life, telling me to do this and that, not do this and that...Arrrgggghhhh!!! I'm very angry with all the "sibok" people...
Honestly, I know my family will understand me but as the Oldest, I am very concern about my family condition.. I know how my parents are hardly getting the money for their children's sake, I know it is hard to obtain even a single penny, working until late to find Halal money for the family, don't bother their own health, hunger and thirst, smiling until old...
Before I enter the university, I don't really understand their difficulties but as I grow older and facing various challenges here including financial problem, now I realize it is not easy to have the full enjoyment.. Having only limited financial support from the government agency, I have to find a solution.. Alhamdulillah Allah helps me until now.. I got a part-time work and additional funding at the end of the month even though the money I got is only pass for about 1 week... But I am very grateful with all the help I get from the people around me..What you need is only EFFORT, CHANCES, COURAGE, BLESSING from ALLAH and your parents..
And to tell you, if I insists of going to EGYPT six years ago, I would not having a smooth education experience because a year after I got the offer, ARAB SPRING happened... Allahuakbar... Subhanallah... Allah knows what is the best for me and my family... Alhamdulillah... Now, I know my chances to do Master and PHD are all open and I just have to find the right time to do it... And I have friends with the same dream too.. Thank you Allah for your greatest story timeline.... I will try the very best and think wisely before achieving the tittle Dr. in front of my unique name... Amin...
